no life is a complete waste, I can always be used as a counterexample LOL. I was so confused and felt so unloved and lonely I wanted sex, I didn't care who it was with, I didn't think of the repercussions. I'm hopeful that I'm negative. I don't know his status, and from the research I've done, even if he is, the is there but not guaranteed that I would have gotten infected I performed oral on him (no ejaculation) and he masturbated to completion, finishing on the outside of my anus. He performed oral on me to completion. I took a shower immediately afterwords. This was a time ago, I was afraid to really think about it until recently. And now even though there's a good I'm fine, the smallest possibility has driven me to an almost panic thinking about what would happen. The only way I remain calm is in trusting statistics, and trusting him when I asked him if he was clean. The weight of the issue has become so real to me, and that's what I want people here to read. One time can do it. One night stands can and often do lie. Even if they have been recently tested, if they've been sexually active in the last month or so, or since their test, they wouldn't know for 3 months. It's not worth the risk if you're meeting someone on for a quick blow-and-go, how can you trust them or know for sure? don't take the nobody should go through what I'm going through. Insist on a condom and if he says no, leave or have him leave. Sure they don't taste great, but neither does an opportunistic infection of Pneumonia.